My Awakening ......
Thanks for all you do, I am starting a new
website to show Islam's true face, http://islamstrueface.blogspot.com/
This is its first entry, the story of how I left Islam. If you
do publish, feel free to edit some of my words spouted in anger...
My story is like the story of thousands of
other converts. I grew up somewhat rebellious, spiritually anyway,
and I hated going to church each Sunday. I was the type of person
who loved learning about other people, other cultures, and other
religions. When I started studying Islam, I was utterly fascinated.
The books that were created for those interested in the religion
showed the perfection of the religion. "To kill one man is
the same as killing all of humanity" I really loved that
one. (Now that I think about it I can see the stupidity of this
I got deeply involved in studying, the sites
I studied from had been delicately created by those knowing exactly
what a convert hopes to find. A convert is looking for something
not disputing science generally, a peaceful religion, and the
idea of 1 God. The creators of these sites know this, and they
foster towards those on a spiritual search and naive mind. I was
indeed one on a spiritual search, I wanted to feel connected to
something larger than myself, and I wanted to be surrounded by
moral people, with strong convictions against immoral things.
Islam was all of this for me. I became very involved in the religion,
and whenever I happened to stumble upon "radical" or
as I refer to them today Islamically correct sites I simply said
"those are the ones with fucked up views, every religion
has them, and they're ashamed of them." I found many Muslims
on chat rooms, and we all united in the cause that Israel stole
Palestines land, the West was corrupt and evil, Jews were behind
all evil acts. Funny, how easily you can get convinced with eloquent
Then, one day I met Mohamed (NO, not the pedophile
who started the whole cult.) This was Mohamed from Morocco , and
he had come to the US and was living very close to me. We discussed
Islam a lot, and we were both pretty liberal, we listened to music,
agreed that a woman shouldn't be forced to wear hijab, if a woman
wants a job it's fine, and that polygamy is outdated. I really
liked that about him, so we talked every night, on voice chat,
and used the webcam (major sin in Islam by the way, to talk with
non-mahrams, especially while viewing the face) We were only friends,
and he actually had a fiance'e back in Morocco, but he talked
to me about how all she wanted to do was lay around on the beach
in her bikini, we both agreed she had been corrupted by western
values, and women shouldn't show their bodies off for Men to see.
So eventually he broke things off with her and can you see the
inevitable coming here? Ah yes, we decided that we were a perfect
couple to get married. So he made a visit to me, and we affirmed
that belief even more. I was moving to another state soon, and
he also decided that he would move to be with me, and once he
got himself financially secure, we would get married. Here is
what was so perfect to me, he had always wanted to go back to
his country and live there after finishing his education, but
now, because he knew me, he was willing to give up everything
that he had planned to do. How romantic right? How could anyone
ever say that Muslim guys are controlling over Women. I know you
see where this is going.
Things continued to get better with Mo as
I called him, we began to plan our whole future I would work in
the political field, while he worked in the computer field....We
would live in Connecticut (suburbs of course.) Really I was so
in love (first time I actually loved a guy who was not attractive
by the way hehe.) Then one night, I said something off the topic
of discussing our future plans....I said "I just can't get
over these men who want more than one wife, I mean that's just
really stupid, and demeaning towards women." I was not just
speaking of Muslims but Mormons and other primitive people who
agreed with this idea. Suddenly his faced changed from its usual
happiness, into a scornful look. He said: How could you argue
with Allah's words? I said "well in the days of Muhammad,
culture was different and so he didn't see anything wrong with
having more than one wife, and wars left a lot of women as widows,
and they needed caregivers." Now, you see? I was rehashing
the prefabricated Islamic response to this question, mindlessly.
He asked me if I thought Islam was outdated. I replied: "Well
even you agree that cutting off people's heads is barbaric, and
that women working can be a necessity in this society." He
said: "Yes but I do not argue that it is Allah's will, you say
Allah is wrong by saying Polygamy is wrong....and Those who don't
fully believe in all of Allah's words are Kaffirs, and Kaffirs
go to hell." WOW what a change, I immediately said my good night,
and that I didn't want to talk to someone irrational like that.
The next day I received a kind email, filled with I'm sorry, forgive
me, and regrets. That worked! Naively I accepted his apologies
and we continued on as before. I must add, I worried a lot about
how I was going to finance certain aspects in my very expensive
education *you will see why this is important in the next paragraph*
I really don't know where the changing point
came, but I started to become a little suspicious of some Islamic
ideas as I researched more. Not befriending Kaffirs, MURDERING,
lying, WOMEN'S STATUS!!!! Wow what had I missed here? So I talked
to Mo about it, and apparently, this was his boiling point. Here
is the email I received from him.
My words are in bold in the following paragraph.
What the hell is your problem? I am
willing to give up everything for you, My country, My life,
My pride...and whenever I ask you to make one sacrifice, you
get scared of it, scared of Allah's will (Note- The sacrifice
he is mentioning is my disapproval of being a housewife)
How can you dispute what Allah has laid out so clearly? You
care only about money...Care? No thats not the word...You are
Absessed (Remember English not the first language *Obsessed*
is intended word) with Money just as badly as the Jews.
Your dreams are not of how to worship your God, and submit to
his will, but how you can make more money, and get power. When
I dream, I dream of coming home to you, after a hard day of
work, and I see you cooking for me, a clean house, and after
that, we have our time in bed. When you dream, you dream of
how you get more money, how you can get your husband to buy
you what you want. That is the mind of a sick woman. (I'm
the sick one?) Listen here, Allah says the man is more powerful
than the woman, and his job is to watch over her, yet you reject
all of it. Here are my demands and you will follow them not
because I demand them, but because Allah demands them. And Allah
demands submission to the husband.
You will wear
hijab at all times.
not befriend muslim girls without hijab, and you will absolutely
not befriend Kaffirs.
When a male
friend or colleague of mine enters the house, you will go to
a separete room, and stay there until he leaves, unless you
serve him food or drink.
not work, even if I am not able to financially support you,
you will be around Kaffirs at work, and they will look at you
lustfully and tempt you to do wrong. Women are weak, you are
weak, and you will probably end up harrased by a Kaffir.
If you leave,
even with friends, tell me where you are at all times, and whatever
you buy you must show me once you return home
I am allowed
to beat you softly, but only under extreme circumstances, such
as denying sex.
If i want
to get another wife, or two or three, it is my right, and Allah
has recommended it, so if you were a good muslim you will even
help me search for a wife. However, if I do find one, you cannot
object to me wanting to be a better muslim.
I know this may sound
harsh, but you know its right, even if it takes you ten years
to realize. This is my demands, meet them, or you will not have
the privalege to be my wife.
I love you
I feel so stupid in my ignorance, in my naivete', to not see the
truth. You have laid out everything so perfectly for me. I guess
seeing that I am a Woman it is somewhat difficult to come to terms
with what Islam expects from me. Islam wants me to be a housewife,
Islam wants me to submit to all of your requests, Islam wants
me to be completely veiled, except my face and hands. How did
I miss this? I really want to thank you for bringing the truth
to me, for in your email you have clearly laid out what had previously
been hidden to me.
You showed me that Islam believes that women
are merely sex objects and property, Islam was created by a Prophet
who was indeed vile and a pedophile, Islam allows you to beat
me. It allows you to be a polygamist. What does it allow me? It
allows me to stay in the house, because I am nothing but an object
of sin. If Allah is most gracious, most merciful, he wouldn't
have chosen such an ill minded prophet. If Allah is who we worship,
and whose aid we seek, count me out! I don't seek the aid of a
vengeful God, who thinks beheading people is okay, who thinks
beating women is okay, who thinks pedophilia is okay in this life,
and homosexual pedophilia is okay in the next.
My Mother always taught me to respect those
whose opinions are different, and understand that everyone has
their own way of spiritual enlightenment. She also taught me to
never use foul language. Most of all; never be angry, because
you will later regret what you say. Sorry Mom I guess I failed
you tonight with what I am about to say.
Fuck you! (Wow that really does feel good.)
I will not serve you, and I will not serve a god who is the monster
the qur'an speaks of. Call me a kaffir please, I would much rather
be associated with that culture, than one that believes its okay
to kill 750 Jews in one day, behead non-believers, and escalate
an old man who had sex with a 9 year old girl, and married her
at age 6. If the Jannah you speak of is full of people like you,
why would I want a destination like that? The true hell would
be living around millions of people such as you.
I will lock my doors now, change my name,
and move....because for Muslims to denounce Islam and leave their
religion is punishable by death.
However, once again thank you, for showing
me the light of Islam. May the truth set you free.
Isn't it great how one person can make you see
the truth? My only hope now is that we realize how Islam is a threat
to our society, and we must help other Muslims escape. Most do not
realize what their religion really teaches, and for those that do,
well, you see what they do. Look at NYC, look at London , Look at
Bali or Beslan; that is the works of true believers. For Verily,
Jihad is the duty of all Muslim males. What we call "good" Muslims
are actually hypocrites to their religion. Those who claim peace,
equality, human rights, are denouncing their religion with those
statements. Those who kill non-believers, they are the true Muslims.
This site will be dedicated to proving the truth
of all that I have said. It will take some hard work, but I have
it all available, and it's worth it if it raises recognition of
how Islam truly is evil. I strongly thank Mr. Ali Sina for also
uncovering the truth and helping me read more about it, and making
me firm in my decision.
Welcome back to the fold of humanity. How lucky
you are that Mo was stupid enough to show his hand before marring
you and have a child. Other Muslims are much smarter. They wait
and play the nice guy game until they know the woman is completely
under their control and then they remove the mask.
Also perhaps you should know that the story of
Mo's girlfriend lying on the beach in bikini and that in an Islamic
country is just a pathetic lie. This controlling man could not have
tolerated the thought of a girlfriend in bikini. Also his plan of
going back to his country was another lie. Muslims kill to come
out of their Islamic paradises. you were for him the Green Card.
He said all those things to win your sympathy. Look how he used
the "I gave up everything for you" to induce guilt in you. I urge
anyone who wants to marry a Muslim, especially a Muslim man to study
narcissistic personality disorder and see how the charming man she
loves, whom she thinks is different, fits that profile. The moment
one becomes a Muslim, and to the degree that he follows Muhammad,
he starts showing signs of NPD pathology. That is because all the
Muslims have entered into Muhammad's narcissistic bubble universe.
They have zero conscience when it comes to the rights of non-Muslims.
The only thing admirable about this narcissist is that in a brief
moment of honesty, perhaps in rage he wrote that email and said
it all. One must read that email several times. These are not Mo's
personal views. He is stating the relationship of husband and wife
Congratulations for not having the privalege
[sic] of becoming the battered wife of this sick man and congratulations
for starting your site to expose the evil cult of Islam. I hope
you may be able to reach other girls who date Muslim men and save
them before it is too late for them. Happy endings to these stories
are rare if any. Maybe you should go back to your church and tell
your story to everyone.
I encourage everyone to start a site. You can
have free sites and you can just copy paste articles from this site.
The more sites there are the more google will pick up the articles
that expose Islam. Your site can be just a few pages.
What I love about Muslims converting people is
that most of them leave Islam as soon as the mask comes down and
they see its ugly face. These people then join the army of light
and with dedication try to eradicate this cult of hate. So Muslims;...
go ahead;... keep converting unwary people with your lies. Soon
you'll see what you thought is the "fastest growing religion"
is actually the fastest dying insanity.
permission from Faith